I think I've found my life's credo...

In a random post on Facebook, I wrote the words that I was feeling at the moment...

I will always have room at my table for one more guest, room in my heart for one more friend, room in my house for one more child. Love, for certain, is infinite. You can always make more.

And the more I thought about it, the more I realized that this statement, these simple little words, are completely what motivate me in my everyday life. They are my credo, the thing that keeps me going.

I want a full table all the time. I want a full heart all the time. I want a full house all the time. And despite my shortcomings, despite my challenges, I know that I want more children.

People give me a lot of "but"s. BUT you're a single mom without a man to help you. BUT you live on a librarian's salary that only goes so far. BUT you're blind as a bat and can't drive a car. BUT, BUT, BUT....

And my response is this...BUT there are people in my world who need to be fed. There are people in my world who need a friend. There are children in my world who need to be loved. And I am more than willing to comply. They may get mac n' cheese rather than filet mignon. They may get a friend who has kids attached to her and a lot of noise and chaos. They may have to take free swimming lessons at the Brigham Center and apply for scholarships when it's time for college. BUT they will also be loved unconditionally. They will always be safe and fed, valued for every single thing that they bring to this world, and forgiven for anything they don't. They will always have laughter and love and nice warm sweaters.

I realized today how much I like my life, how happy I am that I am who I am. I have many, many flaws and shortcomings. BUT I like that I thrive in spite of them. And I like that I've never accepted limitations on what I can do and who I can love. If I have my wish and my dreams come true....My table will always be full, my heart will always be open, and house will be teaming with friends and family and as many children as I can possibly provide a good life to.